im feeling really depressed and sian now. like no mood to do anything cos sch reopens tmr. ok i might not be e only one feeling this way now. but i seem to be feeling like this every yr on the last day of holiday. maybe if im not in hospitality and tourism i would have felt so much better. im ok with most of the subjects cos ive nv liked any subjects to begin with. but i totally am not into SSM.
i dunno whether i should be saying this. especially here cos someone might just see this post and somehow the tchers will find out about it. but its not about the tchers anyway. its about the subject itself. now im so dreading every wed becos of the subject, and especially when i have to be assistant headwaiter on one of the wednesdays. Next next wk which is pretty soon. and den there's still e proficiency test 2. oh man... i screwed up my proficiency test 1. and if i dun stop acting on my nerves again, i probably will just screw up the second time. and wads worst, if i really screw up everything, i will have to retake the test at the end of the year. which is like zzz.
the problem is really with me. really, i dunno wad i want. i dunno wad i want to accomplish. this sucks. and just now i just looked thru TP website at the courses. Nth there tt interests me much also. except HTM which seems much better than e rest. thank God tmr is a monday and the timetable for mon is the best among the week. i hope i have sth to look forward to every weekend so at least there's sth to motivate me and make time pass much faster. I cant wait for yr 2 to be over. and theres still the tourism academy. oh gosh. only thinking about it plus comments made by mic makes me tired already.
i feel a LITTLE bit better now. thank you blog.
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